Engaged

I WISH I COULD EXPLAIN

I wish I could use my words in a way that is clear and convictional but still elegant and sympathetic. I'm not the best with words. But I am pretty good with understanding my feelings. I am also VERY good at listening to others and making them feel comfortable.

Which is why I felt the need to write down my thoughts. Because sometimes I need my voice to be heard in a way that cannot be rebutted. Sounds selfish, I know; but I'm telling myself I deserve it.

Recently, I made a promise to a man I love that I would commit my life to him. I am SO excited, and each and every day I cannot wait to be with him forever. When I announced the best news in my life so far, I had some interesting responses. There were many congratulations, many "we are so happy for you"s, but to my surprise there were also many "is this real?"s, "are you serious"s, and even a "you are throwing away your potential".

MY POTENTIAL

Let's just look at that word for a moment. The word potential is defined as capable of being or becoming. A latent (latent meaning dormant, untapped) excellence or ability that may or may not be developed. Really. I AM THROWING AWAY my ability to grow and become. I am throwing away my untapped excellence because I am committing to someone who makes me the happiest I have ever been in my life. No. Nope, sorry I just don't see it that way. And you could tell me I'm blinded by this stage in my life. That I'm not seeing the bigger picture. But actually, there's the rub. This is the biggest picture.